Breakdown

I am so frustrated.  Sooo completely frustrated I cannot take it anymore I want to go run outside and scream while stripping all my clothes off!  I am so fucking tired of everything I can longer take this shit.  CAN. NOT. TAKE. IIIIT!

Welcome to the blog entry of:

THINGS I CANNOT STAND:

Jesus Christ, I am sorry for my mental spazims and I assure you I am sane.  People have gotten under my skin for too long now and I am having a freak out.

I can no longer stand that anyone is given the right to a drivers license.   Some stupid people are just too ignorant, dumb, or selfish to be on the road with people who actually drive with caution and COMMON SENSE!  Have you ever hit a deer on a back road?  I have!!  Back roads usually have a speed limit of 35 or 40.  I now go the speed limit on back roads because I am watching for deer.  They are all over the place!  Its not like I am going 25!  I have people come up on me like they are on the high way, flash their lights at me and pass me with such anger, they feel the need to slam down the gas as they pass me…and then the taillights are gone. Are you kidding me?  Are you fucking kidding me?  Fine, you go ahead and hit a deer or a dog.  Better yet, hit a tree trying to turn a corner at that speed on these tight back roads.  Fuck you.

Why is it that men are so different when it comes to acceptable things?  Everything in this world is acceptable for men and not for women.  They can belch, scratch their balls, wear PJ pants out, smoke, gain weight but if a woman gains weight everyone notices and suddenly she is no longer attractive.  We have to look good all the time.  When we wake up our makeup must magically be in place, our bed hair all sexified and comfy clothes?  Hell no!   We should be in a thong, and bustier all night long.  Do not get comfortable and smudge that makeup of yours you sexy slut!!!   You must wake up looking perfect with plumped red lips and smokey eyes!  I blame society for the way men perceive women.

Why are guys are always allowed to do things earlier in life?  They can date, stay out later and get away with a lot more then girls can.  Girls are usually over protected and are punished for wanting to do this guys their age do already.  Hows this for an idea?  Guys are the reason we are being held back…why not keep the guys in close quarters and keep a tight leash on THEM?!  They are the reason you are keeping us in at night, and making sure the door is left open when they are over and we cannot wear anything “revealing”!  Come on.  This is and never was our problem, its the guys who are making it this way for us because they are always horny and cannot control themselves.  So, rightfully, the girls are punished and told not to do certain things.  I curse at 16: I am grounded, no TV, no phone, no talking to friends.  My brother curses at 16: they call him a brat….What the hell is wrong with this world?!  How is it any different?!!?

Everything in this world is judged by your looks.  You can say it isn’t but I have experienced this first hand.  I have been offered free body jewelry, free cigarettes and even a free tattoo.  Why?  Why does this happen?  Not that I am complaining,  yes I took the pack of cigarettes when I was 19, but how pig headed is this world?  The next person will come in and pay over 7 bucks for the same cigarettes and you just gave them away to me for no reason?  I am not a helpless little girl that needs things handed to her.  You cannot live off your looks forever.  Oh, and giving a girl something for free is not guaranteeing you a blow job! (unless you found yourself a really easy girl)

Uptight snobby chicks are the worst.  I hate them and I am not saying I hate girls.  Like, some girls will give a dirty look to another girl simply because she has nice hair or her boyfriend was looking at someone else.  Those are the kind that hate girls.  What is your fucking problem you snotty little cunt?  Go back to your barbie dream house and stay there.  No out here wants you!   What I do not understand more so is how these girls get boyfriends and keep them.  They want everything to themselves, think the world revolves around them and probably have rich parents that will take care of her for life.  Good luck to you and your miserable life.

I have done some horrible things in my past.  That is my past and I cant change it.  Some things I really wish I could but whats done is done.  I cannot stand when people judge me on these things.  I am not that person anymore.  I do not and will not do any of that stuff anymore so get on with your own life and stop judging me.

A lot of things in life start to biuld up and bother me til I cannot take it anymore.  This is just the beginning and these are not the only things that have brought me to this point.  Even your best friend may not know you, only you know what is going on deep inside yourself so do not let anyone judge you and make you out to be someone you are not.  No one knows your daily obstacles or what your past has made you.